Ignore This. It’s just gross emotions I needed to vent.
I feel like I’ve hit an all time low and my brain refuses to ask for help. I can’t talk to my friends or even my fiancee about it too much because I don’t want to trouble them. Everybody has their own things to deal with and to reach out to them would be asking way too much. I’m a hassle. I need too much, but I don’t want to put that on anyone. This year was the first in a long time where the thought of self harming again wouldn’t go away. I haven’t hurt myself in almost five years and yet, its come crawling back. I can’t do this by myself anymore. I had to post here because I needed it out of my head, but people I know irl follow me every where else.
